life's a bitch

2011-11-24T08:28:00.000+08:00

There's a reason why penalty is imposed, should a contract be ended earlier than its due date.

2011-11-23T08:55:00.000+08:00

because it corrodes from within..

2011-08-31T01:19:00.001+08:00

believing is seeing..

2011-08-25T21:20:00.000+08:00

North pole on the stove

2011-08-19T23:20:00.000+08:00

What is real is fleeting.

Don't ask for the truth when you can't handle it, screw the sense of familiarity.

2011-08-12T01:00:00.003+08:00

when the one flower i sincerely wanted to save, withers..
and i'm the very cause of it.
then the gentle breeze assures a kind thought for myself i should spare.
digress with the weight of the world resting upon my shoulder.
the tiresome drops of perspiration that leads to the same old familiar exasperation.
and amongst the bed of dried petals,
i found the rarest of them all.
yet the mirror spoke with shining concern that i seek not with wisdom,
instead with folly drenched in liquor.
funny how the crystals shines just as bright as diamond.
get the drift.
yet finally found the one comfortable spot under the shady palm tree,
i get questioned for not taking on the tsunami once again.
so sick of the never ending track,
that stroll i rather on the outskirts of town.
concern,
perhaps.
duty,
i admit.
but e tears spoke otherwise,
confused,
more like it.
the dwindling scent,
coffee if i must.
joke,
it must be.
for the shadows never seem to take a break.
well,
i shall on behalf.
into the dense woods,
where the adventure that lies ahead not,
but the unforeseen journey rather.
because with the right hand in place,
nothing hinders,
not even the toughest race.
at least, i reckon..

2011-05-10T22:58:00.001+08:00

2011-04-19T00:55:00.000+08:00

2011-04-11T23:23:00.002+08:00

the awakening truth in my state of insobriety, scares me

2011-03-22T01:18:00.002+08:00

dey say too many cooks spoil the soup,
i say it all depends on the chosen cooks.

dey say to ink each a phrase the love of sonnet,
i say why pablo's instead of ur own ?

dey asked when's the end of the contract,
soon i smiled - all piped up for the detour.

dey checked hows my personal contract,
i said renew and extend firmly (:

dey said burn, amend and renew selective bridges,
receptively - i did all three

i dreamt of u last night, the sweetest of all i reckon
beams

in secret,
between the shadow and the soul..
the plant that never blooms,
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers..

2011-03-13T07:20:00.000+08:00

u taught me to stop trusting..

2011-03-07T22:47:00.001+08:00

and because i'm red, it makes me blue..

because if u trust me, know me enough to trust me still, you would know..

2011-02-27T06:04:00.002+08:00

when you meet someone that makes you feel like you're afraid to fall in love,
u know you've met the right one..

2011-02-24T04:05:00.003+08:00

bad habits die hard

2011-02-23T02:13:00.005+08:00

it takes time to get alice out of wonderland.
and when she's finally out, dere're lotsa tots to be sorted out..
is that a bunny ? Yes it is !! one with starsssss :D

woke frm a terrible nightmare, turned to my fone and realised - Oh..
when nth but the plain truth gets depicted only in dreams

there's a saying which goes, pick yourself up from where u fall.
now, the question is - if the one who picked u up is the very same person who led u to an even greater fall, do u still hope for the same person to pick u up again or rather go running back to e person for help ?

2011-02-18T12:26:00.004+08:00

when the familiarity at every turn cuts..

habits can be altered with a simple change of routine - break it

2011-02-18T12:04:00.005+08:00

let the touring begin (:

2011-02-08T00:37:00.005+08:00

its annoying how old wounds reopened repeatedly,
inflammation at the roots.

when reading goes deep frm psychology, to how the brain functions to interpretation of dreams, life changing moments, cancer theorem even to sports but not synopsis ? 5 more years (:

2011-02-07T00:50:00.004+08:00

life:
like as if one bad choice wasn't devastating enough, i had to make 3 !!
"don't get ur hopes high" (:

cny:
Crazy New Year more like it
eeE HARRR !!
most phenomenal ever,
pleasantly sweet and exhausting.
all worth it, i say.

hoONK ! get outta way, if u wanna live (:
erm, what happened again ?

THE lit

work:
the punctuation marks are on their wayyy
soon, i hope too :\

2011-01-02T22:54:00.002+08:00

imagine 4 concurrent green lights at a cross junction

unbelievable (:
020111

2011-01-01T16:21:00.006+08:00

resolution of the yr : get out of the bangali clan for good !

and perhaps with a lil magic; get to see the twirling dragon

2010-12-19T17:17:00.001+08:00

一日夫妻百日恩

2010-10-18T04:10:00.001+08:00

if i open the door to hug you.. will you hug me back ?

2010-10-18T03:14:00.000+08:00

bcoz the glued cracks gave way..

1. summarised with e cd, i can't deny wads within. why can't reality match the songs and be portrayed exactly that way.. for hugs were all that i want, in times of sorrow, anger, joy or pain. and if it was wad u wanted, why e need to wish for it to happen in the future, when it could have been the present..

2. it wasn't meant to be a passing cloud, the bank account speaks aloud
the dairy spoke e truth, so was the plan of roof.
the fate i claimed, was my gain.
too good to be true, of which was to rue..

3. liang ge ren shen qi zhe, kan zhe shui xian she bu de.. dao she me shi hou, cai hui jue de wu fa ren shou, nan dao zhe yang cai zhen ming ai you duo shen.. wo she bu de, wo hui tou le dan ni que qi nei le... ni rang wo si xin, wo fang qi le, ni cai she bu de.. wo wei he na me rong yi lei, wo wei he jiu zhe yang fang qi, wo he chang bu hou hui, he chang bu liu lei..

4. that was all i needed to know.. all i needed to go running back, why won't u say it to me ? because i soiled the route, you cut the route, i left the route, u closed the route, and the truth was not that i didn't want to head back, but i don't know how to.. the glimpse of hope u gave that the route could be reopened, i had my doubts and again the sickening chain reaction led to the outcome which wasn't supposed to be.

5. i wanted to explain, i could have explained but i chose not to.. but if i did would anything change ? why pretend.. why did i hold back. i shouldn't have..

2010-10-17T12:01:00.002+08:00

i just woke up (:

what took me so long.. it must be my green lil alarm clock not working well. a change of battery would probably so the trick (:

2010-10-03T18:21:00.002+08:00

The turtle's always been inclined
to live within his shell.
But why he cares to be confined,
the turtle does not tell..

2010-10-02T16:26:00.003+08:00

bcoz defense mechanisms arent guarded in dreams, it is the only place where we come clean and be true to how we feel deep down within..

(:

i feel like eating roti prata

2010-09-27T14:37:00.002+08:00

bcoz my monday wasn't meant to be spent this way..

2010-09-26T12:06:00.001+08:00

why is it that when the player goes showhand, the banker would fold
and when the banker goes showhand, the player would fold ?

2010-09-24T00:13:00.003+08:00

Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playing over

Cause your heart's dead
And mine's bruised
For the stains cut
We missed the cruise

Cause i don't feel lyk slping
And if i did
i don't feel lyk waking

2010-09-18T04:52:00.000+08:00

U wan some ?
No thanks.
Why not ?
Bcoz I aint no junkie.
Den why bother partying ?

2010-08-21T20:44:00.003+08:00

when a min seems lyk an hour,
an hour lyk a day,
and a day lyk forever..

the constant notice of that one particular shade
the unknowing steps imprinted in thy head

with uncertainty battling my wants,
i question if fairy tale exist..

horse or unicorn ?

2010-08-17T23:26:00.000+08:00

bcoz tonight,
the view from the same window changed completely..

2010-08-17T20:53:00.002+08:00

barclays
"don't get cheated by the name !"
"don't get your hopes high"
"i'll slowly tell you more (in side scoop)"
"of coz i'm gd at it, i always bind my notes"
"wanna go pantry?"
(:
when its a rough sea out dere and we're all on the same boat, ppl tend to look out for one another

xiao tiao
took a bus ride,
went passed chijmes..
with a million scenes flashing before, the next scene just has to be ms

i run to you
lovely song

there are somethings that money simply can't buy

the biggest mistake was to approach wrongly
fuck.

2010-08-17T00:50:00.001+08:00

propaganda not
when cents build up to dimes

2010-07-26T11:27:00.000+08:00

i am so in love

2010-07-22T21:10:00.000+08:00

9 feet under

2010-07-19T23:11:00.000+08:00

i miss you..

2010-07-14T10:16:00.002+08:00

a-s-s-u-m-e
"are you making an ass out of you and me?!" by none other than bo. you do not want to be in the service line with ppl lyk him around.

"if i had you"
you were everything i wanted but time made a mockery out of us.

the anxiety of dates vs the accuracy of technology with the aid of science and the laughter of exasperation. "cai fan" before jogging, possible. according to queen bee's theory, you hafta zara with the right person.

some words of caution haunt,
haunt real bad.

enjoying the nv ending laughters (: with the presence of the bird.
when sunset stays on forever,
you get absolute peace under the blinds.
even if time was however,
placed wrongly in the lines.
for the yearn of addition,
is nth compared to the companion.
why would i need an audition,
when bliss need not be ironed.
yet the worry of piggybacks going extinct,
can be treated with a simple pinch.
because you are of no instinct,
but completion without a tinge.

2010-06-23T00:17:00.004+08:00

puppy hunting
2800 for a slky terrier, how would it be not cute ?!
两个去, 三个回 :D ?

blisters and abrasions from golf session
why didn't i end e session ?
bcoz dad seems to be enjoying it (:

dead beat, super heavy eyelids
why didn't i slp tru ?
bcoz mom's arrival is more important dan aniting else (:

aching hands
why use them to perform massage ?
bcoz its bao bei that needs it (:

温暖的家
is when arrival is greeted with homemade tang yuan
plus top quality spa
beams !

seriously,
screw the fella that came up with negative multiplied by negative gives positive and that negative multiply positive gives negative

"and you know what the best part of today is ? i get to fall in love with you all over again.."
shrek, forever after.
"you've got friends who adore you, 3 lovely kids and a wife who loves you a lot. why are you the only one who is not seeing it ?"
"bcoz i only realised what i had, when its gone."
how sad.
life.
bcoz reality doesn't give the chance of a re-contract and magical ink to endorse and experience life changing moments which have exit clauses.

words on its own are lyk paper- weightless. as the saying goes, actions speak louder than words. but spiteful words are lyk papercuts, deep and painful.

with all e fats building up over e past few months, runner is harder dan ever !! but running in your hands woundn't..

2010-06-14T01:30:00.004+08:00

watched sex in the city 2

smokiNG HOT~

nanny over cheating,
to all the moms'
a drunk man's words,
are the thoughts of a sober man.
a lady's best fren can be none other but abdul~
when condom meets middle east,
louis vuitton goes under the wraps.
bcoz gfs would join an urgent meeting,
even if they were in e middle of soaking nakedly with masks on.
and yes i've paid the price,
but look at how much i've gained..

i noe its the right company when the heavy door gets ushered by the yawning hand.
that how the walk in doesn't matter bcoz its how the strutted out dat counts.
where the presence of sparkle is everywhere, from the bookshop to the escalator to the theatre and so on..
bcoz ideal is perfection in the eyes of the beholder.
and with the right one, its valentines' day every single day..

unless otherwise of coz.
for the black diamond says it all.
when you love and can't afford to lose..
the right one lyk i've said, of coz ;)

and somethings just don't change
lyk how some bonds stayed the same,
even if presence wasn't found (:
the imitation of cheez, starring special guests appearances- bo and mm

when the price of slk sounds lyk papermade.
say hello to the anticipation by wadever~
(: bcoz such bonds lives on trust

2010-06-04T13:46:00.002+08:00

i read the archives of a fren's blog. i couldn't stop smiling. i rmbed every single scene in that month. the tears, the joy, the agony, the hope ?, the failed.. at least it was the truest of them all, where everything that i could hold on was for real, where everything didn't seem to be deemed as will-be-depreciated, where i didn't need magic for things to happen but merely having to retrieve the ball from the one man's court into my own and controlling the game. easier said than done. otherwise failure wouldn't be wad had been experienced.

from the demanding, to the porridge, to the reading in bed.

i guess it all voice down to two crucial points..

1) always choose to love than to be loved, for its hard to fake what's not real to begin with.. for what's real, can be felt, even if it was for a sec, that look, that hug, that kiss, that touch..

2) it takes two hands to clap. no one man should be solely responsible for the wrong route to the gold. the other is equally involved in the failure. the sabotage that gave rise to the misled were the cause of missing trust. why else would one doubt ?

2010-06-02T10:51:00.002+08:00

what is unconditional ?

the words joanna repeated, from andre in his car when we were making our way back from the airport ?
i smiled upon it.

2010-05-31T13:00:00.005+08:00

it feels awfully weird to be turning in while the sky is dark, after having accustomed to turning in when the sun is up for a month. tym to readjust mi body clock.

the no lee way route is finally closed. results are all that awaits now.

can't wait to...

mon- mario cup
tue- grand slam
wed- crazy rabbits ( bi lousy~ heheeh)
thurs- mario ( u're going down !!)
fri- moviess :D
sat- rest
sun- family day (:

add ons,

jap :D
museum
ikea
casino
taiwan !!
ultimate lose wight plan
bo and mm
mj
meetups

and..
work, just can't run from reality

2010-05-06T17:05:00.002+08:00

it's funny how people find more truth to a fictional book, compared to a non fictional one.

2010-05-06T15:42:00.003+08:00

living in a fairytale of my own (:

how's depreciation gonna be charged ? straight line, reducing balance or usage method ? hmmm, best before ?

2010-04-30T15:43:00.003+08:00

watched ip man 2, ip man 1 is betta i reckon. honey bear said i've attached my emotions too much onto the show. thats probably what happened when i read adele's.

sugarcane juice, with instant freshly squeezed lime before me (: ultimate freshness. my privilege (: sweetness in daily mundane

2010-04-30T13:10:00.003+08:00

p: its different la, i'm a bitch, you're not. (to be given credit for honesty ?)

s: he's just trying to find fault with you so that he can go and meet her. (what's your call ?)

m: i find that its pointless. if he can say such thing it goes to show.. (permanent damage ?)

g: don't be a retard, you don't owe anyone. ( i can sense its nearing ?)

b: wl, buey gian ready lo. (crushed ?)

c: worst off sight ever. (pay skl fees ?)

exams. study. insufficient slp. dark eye circles. exhausted. demoralized. the last lap. make it or break it.

the chill, the berries, the freshness. it can only be one place.

2010-04-29T16:07:00.005+08:00

shattered.

flick.

---
b: she must be thinking how sweet he is, but its a different story if she gets to see what's happening before me. (when your partner calls you up to check on you and claims to be out with his mates but was actually with his ex)

p: can i have the permission to save him under your name ? (when your partner saves an admirer's name as a friend)

s: so ? only touchy what, we nv fuck. (when your partner claims the line of adultery is only crossed when sex is involved)

reality is harsh, not to mention disheartening.
fairy tales are just a way of escape from reality.
can u trust what u see ?
---

most tiring day

2010-04-21T11:40:00.001+08:00

i know you can't wait to see.. heheeh

2010-04-20T21:16:00.007+08:00

2010-04-20T20:31:00.003+08:00

what can i do to the person who sings the sweetest words but at the same time, the nastiest ones else well. i guess i can only smile (: everyone needs to be doted on, be it by their love ones, parents or friends (: as long as sincerity is the base, what's delivered would be heartfelt.

but when there's a choice, why bother bout the nasty stuff ? simply sift out the lovely ones if you asked me (:

"u beta careful. get some coffee to the lecture if u really feel very tired. love you"

"i feel so sad when you say that, because i can feel your pain"

"i decided not to anymore, because i can tell you love him very much"

"sweetheart u wake up already. today is a rainin day u got school ?"

still, i'm sick of the "if i were you". can we play musical chairs for once ?

ladies~

a switch after 22 years, can i get used to ? HELL YEA! though the tinge is still needed. after all, its been so many years. embedded, aint stick ons.

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there." - Bob Marley

can't wait for the laughing to get started.

the human shell is so fragile, let alone what's within.

what if every step leads me further away from the final destination ?

paradoxical choices.

2010-04-18T01:12:00.003+08:00

10.02.10
when the 8 characters don't match, you'll get the phrase "you today really is wtf man" haHAHahaha.

lab coat promotes flasher.
retching

iphone/ bb ? buddy (:
"loser" in the morning, makes the crowd goes wild~ hysterical laughing gets welcome by stares from the busstopppp.

fathers' jammed day (;

when tears flow with a smile, you're definitely worth it.

you know you're with the right one, when you'll wanna do it all over again if given a second chance.

seriously, whats the point of planning when things just don't go according to the plan ?

2010-04-08T20:06:00.001+08:00

i wish i'll go after you, because i love you (:

(31)

2010-04-06T00:45:00.004+08:00

the demolish i thought of, but the pathetic need of seclusion override.

its amazing how 3 diff sets of personalities hit bulls eye.

-the nv ending vicious cycle

-the theory of foodless and bottomless pain

-the humor craze of unexpected wisdom words at the nick of tym

(well, at least 2 or 3 are of similar creatures)

the tinge of humor at how the musical chairs operate.

the me in you, and the you in me.

she affirmed the perfect match, of which at the level of risk, returns commensurate. yet somehow the positively correlated became negatively correlated and in a blink of an eye, the correlation became 0.

(when the how matters no more)

its nice how the windows of a straw house allow sight of the rainbow and sea breeze whilst the actual weather spoke otherwise. the realization of what's instilled in the straws. when the current love paints the necessities of the realistic society, its not that hard to brisk through and temporary reliefs at the cost of incremental numbers+beauty aren't needed.

i wonder how the walls were like beneath the current coat of paint.

(the last page of the book)

procrastination only deters.

the await becomes clear.

2010-03-31T10:50:00.000+08:00

c'est and probleme plus the putain

2010-03-25T14:24:00.003+08:00

dread sleeping,

when the loveliest shut eye was done basking in the afternoon sun, in the arms of none other but him (:

2010-03-21T04:49:00.000+08:00

21.03.10

2010-03-12T13:26:00.000+08:00

fear seeps through stains..

2010-03-12T01:37:00.004+08:00

when a diamond is scratched, it can be polished. but if it keeps getting scratched and be polished over and over again, the caret will diminish. what's lost cannot be restored. the diamond can never be reinstated to its original state.

embedded in hers, reflected through hers.

what if what's built all this years has got to be demolished and rebuilt from scratch ? if all that's been synchronized and appreciated takes the other route down hill. could a common consensus be reached or the rays can only be reflected but not shine through ? is it possible for the reconstruction ?

2010-03-08T02:10:00.001+08:00

where were you when i was lying there..

2010-03-04T13:02:00.001+08:00

the best way to treat a cough and flu is "yi du gong du" ~

beams-

2010-02-28T18:05:00.002+08:00

remedy of the swing

2010-02-27T01:05:00.004+08:00

bought the perks

but got lost in the herd.

and to join the misfit class,

i may just end up last.

for the gaps in the glass,

aint filling up fast.

because if coffee flows,

and the path it glows,

failed not the cover,

but through the feather of one's nest

in the frame of a lover,

lest the adverse result of rest

give rise to the infliction,

coloring the intention.

and when the sword drops,

the minimum is shown in the dead crops.

the plunge in the baby pool, on the contrary of the floating in the water tornado.

touch and go fits drive through more than dining in.

the unawareness that struck.

how could it be u knew,

when i wasn't ?

i know they miss,

through their licks of bliss.

consistency in discipline is the cement which holds the bricks together.

wither on the vine,

my intention-less.

but to wither the hardiest ego,

was a choice of yours.

when the only bridge gets chopped,

the only route which connects vanish.

and when the vines twirl the fence,

the castle can only be circled but not discovered.

i've got a bear (:

2010-02-24T02:26:00.002+08:00

late at night when all the world is sleeping, i stay up and think of you..

2010-02-23T00:02:00.001+08:00

my first regret.

fresh and new (:

2010-02-22T01:34:00.000+08:00

painstaking mockery

2010-02-15T12:05:00.005+08:00

my sleepless night,
yet the smile in sight.

how does it feel to wake and find yourself lying beside you ?

you don't know nuts because you were nv close, let alone in. ouch, it must have hurt. but the bitch role, i've nv mind playing (: i wonder how is it possible you've got the cheek to place yourself on par with him, its a humorously over provision, you mean nothing. oh wait, did u even know that ? there's a difference between priceless and worthless.yea, she's back. back for good. the not-meant-for-losers harsh reality.

i'm in, are you ?
`wild card

whats the point of show hand when the game was plotted beforehand ?
remove the caution,
i'm for real,
strip poker, no doubts, just the question of chances.
would it be the first and last ?
mom knows best eh
its about tym to follow mom, instead of dad.

2010-02-07T14:37:00.003+08:00

i can't believe i'm watching tv with my specs on. faints~ all thanks to MA and FR. sigh. i foresee specs as my permanent accessory.

the little me in the humongous palm.

influential excitement. first, friday. then saturday. then wednesday (: lets get the puking started. haha.

u asked me to picture you doing it. i can't. do it in reality, and i will.

the difference between dreaming and reality is that in reality, you don't get to wake out of it.

it took me years to realise, i'm not that english after all. simply not my style.

2010-02-01T12:39:00.003+08:00

i realized i'm surrounded by bad horses. 2 out of 2. hahaa. oh well.

and when i'm at the crossroads of multiple road signs, all i need is someone who knows me better than myself to help me path out my own road sign (: thus, not needing leeway no more.

the sweetest 'i miss you' is said to me by a bear (:

new look indeed

at the weirdest place, i pick up pieces of my confidence.
at the darkest place, i saw the charm through my eyes.

in need of some intense saboteur sessions !! trade of commodities-

2010-01-30T18:30:00.003+08:00

understood (:
a raft can be just as luxurious

2010-01-24T23:02:00.003+08:00

its times like this, when i know who truly cares (:

her spit, him insisting, his porridge, her preference, his advice.

2010-01-21T14:26:00.002+08:00

assignments are killing me, draining all my brain cells.

the enthusiastic crowd,
queueing to replace the out.
with the precision of time,
comes the sparkle of dime.
the rhythm of presence,
with the splurge of presents.
replaced what's not dryly,
but the question of expiry.
the pattern that haunts,
versus the smiles worn.
yet challenge of resistance,
give rise to addictive yearns.
bottom line,
are the bits fine ?

2010-01-17T13:20:00.002+08:00

i dunno how the equation works, not a mathematical person to start with. but i'll be lying if i said i didn't feel anything. the passing scenes, i'll still smile at. but the fish seller, i rather not. after all, the narrow walk way is not all that unfamiliar to begin with. its more of getting hook onto the momentum of sinking in, so as not to cause a splash, instead just gentle ripples.

2010-01-16T14:03:00.004+08:00

who in the world calls up a fren and say its to check if the number is still in use, so as to clear space in the sim card ?! yes, none other than sickening FOO yiling. hahaaa. i think the meet ups are too far apart that everytime we meet we've got so much to fill each other that the staff of the eatery has to inform us that they have to do closing.

"oh noo~ i think you'll be blocked too~"
"already blocked"

embarrassing moments of the night:
u-turn at the somewhat entrance of a club
bumping into "chao chao"
slipping twice on the stairs with the spotlight on
being dragged by the arm hence, sliding across the floor
being worried if twenty is enough for 2 - dimsum

overall, still a splendid night (:

2010-01-12T19:47:00.006+08:00

omg, i received an envelope, stated on government service. didn't have a good hunch about it. but the content is the best gift ever, ahhh~ omg, super sweet sweet sweet. ecstatic ! i got nominated for the Caring Teacher Awards 2010 !! weE :D !! heheeh. oh my god seriously !! hahaha, wee~ its hard to get back on earth. heez :D

i guess i was nv really into the mask itself. humor knocks out honey anytime; goes to show how hardworking i am.

when the pace is wrong, the jog can kill.

its fun being a kid, what more having company at doing it. beams-

2010-01-10T19:27:00.001+08:00

perhaps bus stops aren't meant for the wait of buses

2010-01-07T15:38:00.003+08:00

the day my heart stopped beating altogether,
i stripped.

2010-01-01T00:44:00.001+08:00

jolly new year (:

2009-12-31T18:36:00.002+08:00

i do love you a lot, don't i ?

unperturbed feelings-

2009-12-25T17:14:00.003+08:00

she says its merely one more week to go,
i reckon its gonna take longer than that.

if its the same scene, same circumstances, yet different outcomes, i would say its the characters that differ.

2009-12-23T23:03:00.000+08:00

can i do without snow this xmas ?

2009-12-22T22:09:00.004+08:00

i was given the cue. yet i did nothing.

throughout the whole day, i was immersed in my thoughts of you. smiles. honesty is the best policy right ? the very 4 words lingered in my mind as i stroll through the battle within and asked myself how i could've done better, been better. i couldn't get by, how much more i could have given. and it struck me, if my interpretation was wrong.

the question lingers. do i really want an answer to it ? what answer do i want ?

then as the other face appeared in my mind, i smiled. and when she reminded me of my crippled state, i couldn't agree more.

do i want what she wants ? i'm smiling to myself. the dreams tell..

2009-12-15T16:15:00.004+08:00

on cloud 9 for sure.
2 days in a row- coincidence ?
can't come down from the cloud, even if i wanted to. haa haha ! god's gift- sweet, beamed to the guy up dere. free ride, surprise breakfast and cash on hand. it has gotta be payback for the horrid nightmare.

true friends put in the effort (:
"she just can't wait to taste me !" HAHAHAhahahah, goodness, shameless. love my bestie. sucha man whore. lol. "you're so gonna die of boredom. i just feel that they're of a different wave length. 2+1 boredom plus more boredom. HAHAHA" seriously bitchy ! meOW~ "i would too, if it was a girl" LOL. "guys have intentions. and they wouldn't trust another in case the other let the cat out of the bag" so true~ "i'll let you choose. bestie privilege. HAHaha" "so sweet~" hahaa, asshole.

thailand, here i come ? hahaha
hit me

bottomless kiss-

2009-12-14T17:12:00.001+08:00

no woman tolerates sharing.

his a father and a husband too, bitch !

2009-12-11T18:26:00.003+08:00

2 girls + common topic + same frequency = 1 hr of chatting + standing under the hot sun + lecture forgone + lunch + non stop chatting.
(at the rate we're going, we need customized guys.) haha

wedding ceremony of two plus one late comer, awesomely real, awesomely fun, awesomely sweet. heheeh. i didn't know throwing the bouquet was so exciting, beams.

interesting speeches of the day:
1. girl, i want to slap you
2. !@#$%^&* EH Y U SO LONG
3. having sex with who
4. faster go do your tummy tuck la
5. sex with wedding ring "spare us the details !"
6. i think what she needs is sex
7. i need a man
8. auntie taste eh you
9. WA LAO why would you even wanna be what your mother in law is wearing ?!
10. cute right, PRACTICALITY LA
11. i give you my leg
12. YES, wahahah, you get it now. ("bitch. misery loves company")
13. what the hell are you doing ?!
14. why are u still staring at the fish that costs 20 when u only got 10
15. do you think in reality, there are such husbands around ? ("LAN JIAO")
16. "JIAN"

interesting moves of the day:
1. "zheng" addiction
2. bouncing fats
3. MAJOR littering
4. hide and seek
5. cam whoring
6. "breast squeezing"
7. getting even with annoying cabbie by paying him much lesser than the fare
8. dvd chionging
9. "building sand castles" on the ocean bed
10. intense interrogation

2009-12-08T23:59:00.002+08:00

a good book is the remedy to a broken heart, and the handkerchief to the oversized teardrops.

2009-12-08T13:26:00.003+08:00

the best way to spend a monday, is to have met both mori and yee bee, beams.

it was nice witnessing how certain she was. but things don't always go according to plan, do they ?

her definition of men. hilarious.

i miss whining to you. nosey stared at me..

as i ponder over her words of marriage and the 10 months pregnancy. smiles. categorization by default isn't my choice, may be hurtful but at least its from within. natural beats man made, no ? even if its the tougher route.

don't leave, focusing on the wrong point. i think i did ? haha. a listening ear is priceless indeed.

like i've always said, fate does its intake of candidates in a humorous way. the parallel routes of years came intersecting twice in a day.

drifting on a piece of log on the calm bed of waves

2009-12-07T17:40:00.001+08:00

i love mori

2009-12-07T03:09:00.003+08:00

the difference is, i love being myself and wanna enjoy every moment of it. unwilling-

for once, i do not like the greens.

sigh, how is it that one can bite their love ones ? i just don't understand why diana can bite pierre that hard and he still grooms her right after the bite. it pains me to not be able to do anything.

the reason for the untold
lies within the willingness.
and the want that unfolds
is the reminiscent of the snuggle.
for the equation was long worked out
but the not the reasoning.
the grasp of selfishness
is none other but the act of spare.
yet the fear of risk
all voice down to the loss it brings.
like the girl in mind
repeatedly repaints the picture.
its easier said than done.
both ways
it weighs.
its not difficult really
yet the greener it shines.
haa
i wonder.
who is the girl i see
staring back at me.
the theory of the eggs perhaps ?

2009-12-04T18:33:00.002+08:00

going at 200 on bike is beyond description of words. but seriously, after riding a RVF who would still want a DRZ ?!! shyt ! love at first touch ! ahaha ! oh man.

some gifts are not meant to be wrapped
certain shades are intended for good reasons
and passion just don't die off over time
like how habits leave trails from within

seriously, i took 3 years to convince myself. how did she do it ?! we just don't get it, and can't get enough of it ! hahahah ! instant puking effect-

its funny how i saw someone familiar in him.

two ice needed to cool off lava.

2009-12-02T22:31:00.004+08:00

when looking back on the report card, i saw my faults. its not that hard when u can come to terms with it. the combine score sheet, i would say carries equal weightage. my failure i see, my bad i reckon. i'm sorry. no matter how many appraisals show otherwise, i know i failed. i know i wasn't good enough, smiles. like i've said, its really not so hard to come to terms with it. on the contrary, thumbs up and thanks. heartfelt, smiles.

some stuff are just meant to be shared with ppl of diff category. after all, u can't fit an elephant into all sorta container, can you ?

love eb. wad do u serve ? my boobs. hahaa ! cute ass theory mastered. sometimes when the flash is on, u just gotta find the switch to turn it off, leaving it on will just hurt the eyes. love her to bits. i say, i can't afford to risk it, else i'll lose it. bitches will turn green with envy, good frens will acknowledge, but sisters, will beamed her approval and feel as happy. peach youghat ice cream is awesome but it is beyond awesome when its shared with the special one (: read-book-session, sucha lie. hahaa. but it was way better, beams.

there's a reason why the word dumb was invented. for guys who thought they could go in between sisters. dumb fuck.

mom surprised me, love her with all my heart.

somehow the feeling i like need not be explained, for what's felt is more real. no ? my fast and slow theory, heez.

WANG YING XIANG, aka boss/yingz couldn't spell S-E-P-T-E-M-B-E-R !!! omggg, faints- hahaha !! had to blog about it. LOL !!

2009-11-24T02:37:00.002+08:00

it played through my ear,
capsized my heart.
the one that's not near,
tailed had the felt of gut.

the play of repeat,
deep down i can't deny.
afford not the pit,
not even a sigh.

the white within,
shall not meet the light.
for it will cause a din,
most certainly blinding sight.

the question i fear,
doesn't make passing hard.
just not meant to hear,
thus the discard.

the want,
that's not the one.
yet the weightage,
it stage.

the flash of scenes,
that cause the felt.
blame not the genes,
but the fact it melt.

the s in mind,
yet path the pitch black.
my long that fell behind,
failed to me of hack.

2009-11-18T19:25:00.002+08:00

i love day 6th's, smiling. can't stop smiling.

the very chore of one,
to him may be a want.
like how the wind of fear,
through your eyes,
just seem so dear.

for a pauper to the king,
may just be the king to another.
like how the words of thine,
i believe ain't like no other.

still, the moves must differ.
for wads taught that's missed,
was the tears of prior.

its funny how the timeline resembles.
yet trust was hitch,
that led to the many fumbles.

was it wad felt, that blinds the sight ?
or was the touch,
that refused to let in light.
or just maybe,
the faith from thee,
i chose to let be.

somehow deep down,
i wish what's shared was true.
not that i can't let go the gown,
but the deviations of you,
i might just live to rue.

2009-11-17T22:27:00.005+08:00

mother nature has its way. but perhaps the living have another. i used to think being a rabbit aint dat bad, at least u've got a lifetime mate (if the owner keeps both female and male tog) but imagine being stuck with the wrong mate for a lifetime. gosh. i think divorce works better. then again, maybe i was looking at the wrong type. yep, mandarin ducks would be more appropriate. perhaps.

last night, i lay in bed, trying to meet alice. but as i failed, my mind wondered and i thought of the walk through city link. i guess you're the only one that has every made me feel so good about myself. and i was smiling while i picture the entire scene over and over again, not forgetting every word u said. its a pity the equation of trust doesn't equate to love. still, i would love to have the scene re-enacted, regardless of cost. not to enjoy my moment, but the moment with u and to appreciate you more. no wonder time is priceless, it changes everything. definitely 30 plus and counting at the present moment, i smiled and fall into the hands of alice.

misread signs can be fetal, i reckon. i hope i'm not repeating similar mistakes. i need my strawberries.

2009-11-16T12:59:00.005+08:00

i thought about her text. the last few words kinda get to me. i'm surprised at how downright honest i am, with her. i'm clueless why it mattered. the thought of it left me feeling lifeless. that even though my somewhat amazing dream lingered vividly in my head, i woke feeling bored, refusing to get out of bed.

if u can't stand the worst of me, then u sure don't deserve the best of me.

its funny how i can be more honest with her than myself. haha.

seeking a way out of his mundane, humdrum existence.

literally not looking forward to anything. den again, i do want that lil garden of mine.

(: i thought of dad. and i'm happy. its funny how things change overtime. love the fact that i corrected him and literally dragged him to the pet shop. and had to finish his beer for him, how cool. looking forward to the next. where hopefully, it'll be the 4th and counting. beams. but seriously, 100km and i got yellow card, no fair.

significant few nv fail to get their way around me. love the small talk.

2009-11-15T11:48:00.003+08:00

my mac is turning green, how is tis possible ?!

i love mori (:
"...ready to go one knee (if they havent already) and you're still...right? And since this is 2 sms-long, was it cut in half? LOL" the so much better than gossip girls session. hahaa. she's always harping on my 1 space sms system.
"haha so you're into fengshui now? haha.. well, honestly i'm not concerned about the new as how you're feeling over the old actually. my concern is you dear" how sweet can she get ? (: love her to bits. but wad can i say, after all that that's happened, its betta to believe in fengshui~ ahaha, i reckon.
"at some point we gotta learn how to let go of things that go nowhere right? so i think my 1% has diminished to a memory. or maybe a 0.5% haha" super adorable. can easily imagine her expression while typing that down. and i can't be more please with my reply. beams.

she texted.
somehow, i hope she isn't sinking to where the 3 of us were building sandcastles before.

i guess, no. correction, i no longer nid to guess. beams. i know. and i meant wad i said (:

and i realised my patience has reached rock bottom towards those who love asking the obvious. its a good sign if u asked me.

tell me now, who's that girl~

2009-11-12T19:44:00.005+08:00

when u can't decide between vanilla and chocolate, it goes to show u want neither. well said. she's not making tym for me :\ neither is the other. i need my ladies !

anticipating, no.
looking forward, yes.

whip me up ?

all i wanted was to be your bride..

one who has a good command of english should not have problem catching it, most certainly.

2009-11-10T12:41:00.004+08:00

i tripped when the known was made realised. that the door was shut tight by none other dan the very hands that tried so hard to keep it open. that then, i felt apologetic to her whom i've neglected. that i try so hard to pry it open. forgetting the two sides of the very sheet of paper. she claimed the brighter compared to the darkest. i saw the dimness compared to the lit.

the theory of eradication doesn't give excuse for space.
and wad aint groundless shant be ignored.

one went forth, but looking back still. one decided to head back. one decided to move on.
at least one is happy. and i'm happy for her (:
sometimes, it doesn't matter to be swayed. u just need a good fren by u, to pull u back.

would be and is; 2 diff things

i would rather dream. its so much better in dere.

but the smiles,
i can get used to.

cookies are evil

2009-11-05T18:46:00.005+08:00

i went to popular. i stopped in my tracks. the photo album section caught my eye. i paused. den i walked..

i blurted.
yes, the word still haunts me.

he was more right than ever. or rather he is.

i need a guide book. my very own guide book.

can't get any better